My life has changed SO much since the last time I blogged...I will explain it over the next few posts but first, lets go back....waaaayyy back to where we left off.
SEPTEMBER: I did go to Jamaica to see Andree and to see if things were just as wonderful in person. I'm very happy to say that YES things were fantastic! We spent almost 3 weeks together all day, everyday and we quickly realized that we were meant for each other and just HAD to spend the rest of our lives together :) Over the next few posts I'll fill you in on some highlights...but for now I'll start at the beginning.
Sept 15..I woke up and I was in "travel mode"...I don't think it really hit me where I was going and what I was doing until I got to Toronto and was boarding the plane to Jamaica...All of a sudden I panicked. I sent a text to a few people saying "WHAT THE HECK AM I DOING?!!?!!? Am I completely crazy?!!?" and I just started bawling...we hadn't even taken off yet and I think the lady next to me thought I was scared to fly...or crazy... I just had such (now) stupid insecurities...I was worried what if he isn't who he seems, what if we don't get along, what if we have nothing to talk about, what if his family hates me, what if he doesn't like what he sees in me...what if, what if, what if!
Then I was getting very encouraging texts back and I started crying all over again (lady def thought I was crazy...) but this time it was because I was SO OVERWHELMED with love for this person I was about to see again and I had a peace about what I was doing and that it was right and it was what we needed to see what the future could hold for us as a couple...and that even if it was time for the chapter of us to close, I had to know either way and this would show us. Although, I did have a very good feeling that this was only the beginning and boy, was that gut feeling right!
I got off the plane and it seemed to take FOREVER to get through immigration and get my bags and I finally got through the doors outside to a sea of Jamaican people waiting around and I was like "Oh crap, I'll never find him!" and then before I could take another step, there he was rushing through people and he had his arms around me before I could finish my next thought. Aww I'm all giddy just thinking about that moment. I was shaking like a leaf..I do this anyway, just from any type of rushing or excitment or nervousness (my sis Samantha has always said "Jill, why are your hands shaking..") and this was like overload..so you can imagine...Andree says I was trembling...he was right, whatever.
It took me until we got to the rental car place and got into the car before my adrenaline stopped pumpin'. It might have had something to do with the fact that I got such a kick out of the CD selection Andree had and that at that moment he was blaring (and singing) "I can love you like that" by All 4 One. There was no awkwardness, we were immediately comfortable with each other and I just new this trip was going to be an unforgetable one!!
"Andree says I was trembling...he was right."
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