The little things

Patience. 

I'm not a patient person.  I have always been like that. When I was young I wanted to be a teenager, now. Then I wanted to be a grown up, now. Then to be done of college, now. Be married, now. Have my husband in Canada, now.  Of course, my most recent one - be skinny - NOW!

All (except skinny) of these things eventually happened, but while I was waiting for them to happen I didn't really appreciate that time like I should have. I did/do TRY to "enjoy the moment" and "live for right now", but that's something that doesn't come naturally for me.

Andree has that quality. He gives thanks for every little thing, if things don't go the way they "should" he takes it in stride and adjusts himself with what seems to be very little effort. This is one of the many reasons why he is my perfect match. ;)

I'm still doing my Jillian Michaels work outs even though Easter kinda messed with me - a) so much food, b) holidays! I do these workouts at work and have had some extended days so last week I only got two days in but hey, that's more than what I was doing a month ago - baby steps!

I'm back at it this week and I'm getting to the point that I know I'm going to do it today, but I look forward to having it over with - not quite to the point where I can't wait to do it today coz I miss 'feeling the burn' - I think that only happens to skinny people...and weirdos. Man,  I want to be a skinny weirdo - now.

I'm actually starting to notice a difference in little things since I've started this new journey, and it's exciting for me. I have had back problems for years, and being overweight has made that worse, there were/are many things that a normal 29 year old woman should be able to do, with ease, that I have a hard time doing. Like sitting on the floor for example. Well, I guess the hard part is the getting up off the floor part...Ha ha Jill on the floor, hardy har! But seriously, I normally avoid it like the plague. 

HOWEVER, I was at my moms and my nieces and nephew were there and my little nephew was on the floor, being adorable, and before I knew it I was sitting on the floor with him. I didn't even think about it until I realized I was sitting on the floor in the middle of a room FULL of people and that I'd need to get up at some point.  Then my dad starting saying he caught a skunk in a trap outside and Andree never saw one before and I was like " let's go see it!!" and before I realized it I was up off the floor, and I don't remember struggling! This could just be because I have a rotten memory, but normally I'd be really self-aware in that situation, trying to look as non-fat as possible. SO, YAY ME!! 

It's the little things...

Elated and Getting Shot

Guess what! I reached my loss goal for March +1!!! I had said I was aiming to lose 5lbs and I lost 6! I'm totally elated. I'm sure it's water weight mostly coz I didn't do anything drastic - However - I'm taking it and I'm pumped.

I did say that if I reached my goal in April I would bump up the intensity and I'm doing it. There are some ladies at work that started doing a 'Jillian Michaels 30 day shred' DVD at lunchtime in one of the training rooms here and I'm like...I have to do this. It's 30 minutes, it's intense, but it will bring results and it's FREE!

Yesterday, I completed Day 1 of Jillian Michaels. It is a hard workout. But after my legs stopped wobbling and my heart rate was back to normal, I felt great! After cooling down a bit and having some lunch I went and got changed back into work clothes and felt really proud of myself. 

There were even  a couple people in the office giving me the 'up, down' and in my head I was all like "that's right...I'm losing weight...check me out..." it was great..Until about 2 hours later I went to the bathroom and realized my frikin zipper was ALL the way down...like WIDE OPEN....Like, when your pants are too tight and you have to lay down to zip them in the first place kind of Wide open...sigh...

Anyway...I finished out the rest of the day feeling pretty good and Dre picked me up after work and high fived me for doing my workout and told me he was proud of me - it was great! Then we get home and I went to go up the steps to the door and nearly wiped out...I blamed the ice...but I knew deep down I could barely lift my legs coz of the workout. I didn't say anything, just popped a couple of tylenol and took it easy for an evening snuggled on the couch with Dre binge watching Alias.  Man, I love that show!

I was really "feeling the burn" when I went to bed and even woke up a number of times throughout the night from a recurring dream that I was getting shot in the thighs...turns out I was just moving.
I'm sure watching Jennifer Garner kick every bad guys butt in Alias probably didn't help...

I know the burn is a good thing! So...even though my legs were on FIAH I still did Day 2 with Jillian...and I'm going to continue it. It's HARD but I'm getting so encouraged by the ladies doing it with me (especially Jenny, my Spin Class/Yoga buddy...that one time...) and also by the people that read this. I never know who does and then someone will put a comment or come up to me and sometimes my reaction is "oh crap, I hope they didn't read the Body Polish one.." but still, your comments and encouragement is totally motivating me!  Thanks you guys!

Now, my lunch break is over and I gotta get back to work...can someone please carry me?